i am fairly vocal on Facebook, definitely so with my ‘Survivor Road’ page. occasionally i get someone offering to “be there for me”, or “offer a friendly ear”, or “help me find others in my area” – you get the idea.
i have found that these people will disappear over time – sometimes a short span, sometimes longer. i’ve puzzled through this and decided that i must be the culprit. i am not responding favorably fast enough – or maybe not at all – and this is pushing these would-be ‘friends’ into the ether of the internet, never to be heard from again. since i still run across their postings, i am certain they haven’t left Facebook — just me.
it is good to note that i have not found this phenomenon on my blog. people i have connected with here have remained – some for months/years. this is a nice offset to the Facebook experience.
the injury comes within. i open myself up, expose and trust – to be rejected and dropped. rejection never felt good as a child, it certainly feels no better now.
probably shouldn’t bother me.
but it does.