monday morning panic

falling fast
too fast
can’t catch
my breath
as if i’m falling
in a vacuum
descending
speed increasing
as i drop ever lower

i know what’s at the bottom
and yet
at the same time
i don’t want to know
but i do

breathe
have to breathe
can’t lose it
need to stay together
focused
otherwise it wins
and this is a battle
i can’t afford to forfeit

suddenly
sitting up in bed
gasping for breath
eyes wet with unshed tears
heart racing
lay back down
calm
close my eyes
and falling
again

i don’t want to die
alone

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