I have always felt alone. Even when in a “solid” relationship – dreams and wishes have always remained silent secrets of the soul. This morning I am covered with the overwhelming realization that I may be ‘on my own’ but I am not ‘alone’. I have friends online I remain in contact with – people that maybe I’ve never met yet whom I find the need to stay in touch with. Their lives have, for various reasons, become important to me and I find myself waking with the desire to know how they are doing.
I used to rely a lot on social media. I lived in Facebook for a long time but I find more and more that is just a way for people to shout out their existence more than it is for them to share themselves. Blogs don’t seem to run that way. At least, not the ones I follow. Here I have found people who are reaching out to touch and be touched. Sharing more than just shouting.
I still feel alone a lot of the time. Ok, most of the time. But in those rare moments, like now, when I can take a more in-depth look at my life, I can see that isn’t exactly the case. I am truly not alone, even if I am completely on my own.
Now if I could just find a way to deal with the loneliness …