My mind has splintered into several “interest groups”. Each demanding control of the main CPU, otherwise known as the brain. Processing power is a premium and currently should be focused on the task at hand, ergo, employment. Instead I’m reading and partial reading and searching and looking and reading …
One of the threads currently unraveling in my mind is that of multiple blogs. More and more I’m reading where someone mentions “in my last blog” or “in my other blog” – why would people have multiple blogs? More importantly, HOW do you manage multiple blogs? I wouldn’t know which one to visit or when. A blog for abuse survival (ok, that’s what THIS one started out as), a blog for my faith, a blog for my music, a blog for this, a blog for that …
If I truly wanted to have that many avenues for posting, wouldn’t it make more sense to build categories and keep all writing here in one blog? Or is it too confusing to find music, videos, prose, poetry, and “basic blog posts” all at one place? By not specializing, am I driving people away?
Which brings up another question – why do I want to gain readers? If it’s to help anyone I can (the original purpose of THIS site), then how is that accomplished? Regardless of the reason – how does someone draw others to read and/or follow their blog? I’ve heard about commenting on other sites, re-blogging from other sites, etc – but that all sounds like gimmicks. When I comment or re-blog something, it’s because I’ve been touched by whatever I read.
And is it just a selfish urge to want to reach others? Am I motivated by sheer narcissistic pleasure/desire? If it is just ego, it would be better to stop blogging completely and fold up shop. Go back to journaling and keeping to myself.
I feel I have much to say, but when I sit and actually try to say something – this is what I end up with 99% of the time. Pure, unadulturated, rambling. Nonsensical tripe.
For that matter – why am I writing this now? Do I really believe people will be interested in reading this … stuff? Good, bad, or indifferent – why is this something I want to share?
Or is it just wanting to share “me”. To reach out and find someone reaching back. To touch a life and have a life touch me. To know I matter in this mass of on-line-ness.
The real question isn’t whether or not I’ll post this, but how long I leave it before I trash it………………………..