under the guise of friendship he asked to meet. with the pretense of empathy did he lure me. feeling the need of understanding I met him, learned to trust him, even to open my heart to him. then with the cold blade of carelessness did he wound me. and now I feel myself closing off, becoming more calloused, more fearful. how I miss the innocence of my youth, and the freedom with which I once faced the world. now there is only rain, and bitter winds, emptiness, and the sense of being less than nothing.